In my roommate's room, a pair of pants hang over the back of the chair I'm sitting in and I can't stop thinking, "Are these pants mine...?"
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Eight
Co-produced with my friend Joan, this show was no easy feat... but the end result was pretty freaking amazing.
I was asked if I found any of the acts surprising, and I actually found a bit of surprise in each one of them.
Here are two words highlighting what made each piece exceptional.
Nikolas - powerful, humorous.
Gabriella - complete style.
Sky - visceral imagery.
Texas - comedic brilliance.
Andrea - creative message.
Audrey - sentimental beauty.
Rebecca - polished, amazing.
Skorpio - skilled, charming.
Rob did a perfect job running tech, Natty was a great stage manager, Dave rocked the bar, we had chairs ;), and our audience was lovely.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
A reunion of sorts
Andy's birthday party. :)
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The Mass and Lower Forty Eight.
I still have the playlist from the first Mass show ever played in San Francisco... It was the one thing I couldn't part with the year I gave Matt a collection of reviews and other Mass related things I had accumulated over the years. The show was at the Attic with Good for Cows - March of 2001. It was a Sunday. The guys had a jar full of ear plugs for the audience that night, and were tame in the photos I took of them.
The first time the Mass played with Lower Forty Eight was for an LFE CD release show in an upstairs...gallery? Phil had seen them play and invited them to open. Andy and Ian were in suits that night, and Andy's guitar playing was aMAZing! After the show, I told Matt that I really liked the Forty Eight Feet people. Matt had a knack for translating my butchering of band names. "You mean Lower Forty Eight?"
My favorite shows were: the night they played 12 Galaxies after their tour, the BoTH CD release show, the Halloween show at Matthew's warehouse, Toxic Beach, and the Golden Bull show after their last tour.
I miss going to see these bands - late nights, smack talk, cigarettes, venues covered in stickers and sweat...
Up until their first tour, I could count the Mass shows that I had missed on one hand.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
The biz
There's something about being backstage that I love... wait, change that to being anywhere near a stage.... :)
I just love being in the theater.
Last week I shadowed my favorite lighting designer friend for the Destiny Arts show, this week I'm volunteering with the stage manager and the prop master at a Z Space show, and next weekend I'll be putting up a show I am co-producing in an underground warehouse space. I'm working on what I want my focus to be in this industry, and doing anything anyone will let me until I figure it out. :)
In the meantime, I'm meeting talented people, learning a ton, and seeing some incredible shows! These last two shows have been remarkably powerful. The Destiny show gives inner city kids a voice and a place to express themselves and impact their communities for positive change, and Sins Invalid is an amazing look at people with disabilities and their unsurpassing beauty.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
I have a name
I saw this on an empty newspaper dispencer on a walk in Oakland. My friend, Kelvin, said it reads, "I have a name..."
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Bloodline
The whole nature versus nurture thing has been creeping up on me lately - how maybe my history is right in front of me all of the time...I just have to look in the mirror and pay attention.
I don't want to find my biological parents (which is the answer to the question you're about to ask). I have a great family and, as I said to a friend the other night - I don't think I want to know the tragic story, or the glamorous life I'm maybe missing out on, or the parents who just didn't want me. ...but I do think about what about them I carry around with me everyday...
I watched The Kids Are All Right - a film about a lesbian couple who both have a child from the same sperm donor. In the film, when one of the kids turns 18 they decide to connect with their biological father. The "bank" makes the connection...and on the story goes... Eventually, the moms meet the donor as well. I don't want to give it away - but, there is a moment in the film where one of the moms says to the donor, "I just keep seeing my kid's expressions in your face."
... could that be real ... ?
Friday, April 1, 2011
Julia Morgan
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I took my first Bay Area acting class in one of the Julia Morgan Center studios -- a room with a soft wood floor and windows full of natural light looking out into the redwoods....
I love re-discovering a beautiful place.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Cyclone
I ended up at an underground warehouse show tonight where I got to see Joan Jeanrenaud play.... AMAZING!!!!
Perfect sound, a raised stage, cafe tables with tablecloths and flowers, a bar and a sound booth, stairs leading to platforms and to rafters, paper umbrellas, a latter hanging from the ceiling hanging lights, heat lamps, old signs, projections on the wall, great musicians and great people.
The Bay Area never ceases to surprise me.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Age 6
A curly haired little boy with glasses and a toy train - corduroy pants, a polo shirt, and a knit sweater.
Another little boy with a buzz cut and a baseball cap - starter jacket, warm up pants, and a bouncy ball.
A rainy Sunday afternoon in a laundromat...
"Hi! Nathaniel! Hi - do you remember me?"
"Ummm... "
"Do you remember me? I was in the class with you..."
"Ummm...hmm, I don't know...? Which class?"
The boy in the baseball cap's dad interrupted and politely said to the boy with the curly hair, "I remember you." Turned to his son and said, "Nathaniel, he was in the class with Miss..."
The conversation trailed off as my dryer stopped. My clothes were still wet, so I dropped a few more quarters into the machine. Another 15 minutes to wait. I tuned back in as the boy with the curly hair was quietly returning to sit with his dad...
A few moments later, the boy with the baseball cap approached the boy with the curly hair.
"Oohhhh, I remember you." He said grinning with recognition, as the bouncy ball slipped from his hand and the boys began to play.
The boy in the baseball cap's dad approached, and the dads began to chat. They seemed to have a nice conversation, but soon their laundry was finished and it was time for the baseball capped boy and his dad to head home.
The boy with the baseball cap looked at the boy with the curly hair and threw himself at him with a giant embrace saying, "Byeeee!" The curly haired boy didn't seem to know what to do. As the boy in the baseball cap and his dad walked out the door, the curly haired boy turned to his dad looking confused and kind of giddy. The curly haired boy's dad sort of shrugged/smiled, looked up ... and caught me smiling too.
:)
Monday, March 21, 2011
Cubby
"Being an artist doesn't take much, just everything you got. Which means, of course, that as the process is giving you life, it is also bringing you closer to death. But it's no big deal. They are one and the same and cannot be avoided or denied. So, when I totally embrace this process, this life/death, and abandon myself to it, I transcend all this gibberish and hang out with the gods. It seems to me that that is worth the price of admission." - Hubert Selby Jr.
Monday, March 14, 2011
The summer I learned to play chess
I met the Mexican guys when I was a waitress at the Greeley Country Club. Miguel, Dino, Mike...? I can't remember all of their names... but one of them accidentally shot Carlos in the leg one night... Carlos was on crutches for months...
There was a busboy at the country club who would sing me songs... "I just wanna fly..." Chad Timkovich? I'll never forget him, his songs, or his blue eyes following me across the dining room...
If I wasn't playing chess, working, sleeping, dancing, or dreaming - I was writing... in my journal or on my walls... in the wee hours of the morning...listening to the silence that only resonates just before dawn...
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Thursday, March 10, 2011
GAMH and things
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Oh right - basically, after about 2 and a half months of complete insanity, I have no set travel or show plans in the immediate future and have actually been able to relax.
This is what I've been doing with my time:
Christopher Titus's The Neverlution at Marine's Memorial Theatre
Tron, the movie
Hip hop class
Audition (I didn't get the part)
Prince at Oracle
SFMOMA
DAI Fight workshop
Oscar night
What We're Up Against at the Magic Theatre
YBCA: YOU kick-off
The Glass Menagerie at Town Hall Theatre
Jessica's birthday / Total B.S.
Jesus Christ Superstar sing through at Ashby Stage
Devotchka at The Great American Music Hall
...and some lovely dinners with Matt, Jess, and Wilder, Sky and Dan, Maureen, Sara, Jen, Michael, Josh, Joan, Shannon, Anna... a nice afternoon visit with Sarah, David, and Zoey, lunch with Gabriella, and one awesome night of foosball w/ Andre and Jen.
*sigh*
The jasmine is blooming outside of my apartment and things are good. :)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
A little over 10 years later, Matt's still playing music and I'm still taking pictures. :)
I miss Colorado so much sometimes. The weather. The space between houses. The dreams that seem to just float around in the thin air...
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Laundromat infatuation
I was sitting on a folding table reading a sign that said, "Do not sit or eat on the folding tables!!" - when he walked in...
He was of medium height with light brown messy hair, a green t-shirt, and jeans just saggy enough to show off his skull and crossbone boxers...
I was sitting a little too close, given the laundromat was empty and I was sitting on the folding table right next to his dryers - which happened to be right next to mine.
He brushed past me, barely acknowledging my presence while I watched him out of the corner of my eye.
He ignored me...and I began to notice that some of his clothes seemed a little too flowery... "He must have a girlfriend", I thought - and his lack of acknowledgment made it seem like either I was, in fact, invisible... or maybe he was just that good of a boyfriend...making him all the more attractive...
After packing up about three loads of laundry, his girlfriend arrived to find me sitting a little too close. She gave me the once over for sitting next to (what she didn't realize was) my laundry. I wanted to tell her that she had nothing to worry about.
...and, that I couldn't believe there were cute men out there who were willing to do their girlfriend's laundry... !!:)