"i.just.don't.know."

I'm standing on the street corner with a friend of mine and this random guy in a convertible pulls up and says to him, "You're a very lucky man." and then drives away. My friend looks at me, smiles and says, "He must think you're my wife."

What...?! ...and, what??!

I was never the pretty girl growing up. I was more the cute sidekick, or the token Asian girl who was cool to have around.

Somehow, it seems I have guys coming out of my ears right now... but, what do I do with them when I only want one.... who's ... unavailable? ...but, keeps moving all of the pieces around and, in the meantime, manages to make me feel wonderful....

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I went to the final dress rehearsal for Scapin the other night - a show with incredible physical comedy that had me laughing throughout the performance... but, I left the theater feeling unsatisfied. I wanted to come away feeling affected. Moved. Changed. I wanted to experience something... more than laughter, I guess...?

The characters were wonderful, but I didn't have much invested in them. I never saw them risk anything. There was dancing, silly walks, elastic body movement... but no real growth or vulnerability.

I guess this brings me back to the question(s) I have about art and judgment. It's all about empathy... no?

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Disneyland!

I had the pleasure of meeting my wonderful friends, Stacey and Todd, at Disneyland this weekend!! You couldn't ask for better company at the happiest place on earth. :)
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September 11th

"Peace Fountain celebrates the triumph of Good over Evil, and sets before us the world's opposing forces - violence and harmony, light and darkness, life and death - which God reconciles in his peace."

I remember taking BART in for work and finding the city strangely quiet. My building was closed and I was told to go home...
I laid on the couch watching the twin towers fall again and again with tears in my eyes and my stomach in knots.

With great respect and hope...my heart goes out today.

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I heart NY

I've just adjusted to this timezone - and back to Cali I go...

A quick breakdown:

Beowulf
My Artichoke Heart
The Highline
Katz's deli
Spanish wine place with the crazy drinking apparatus thingy
Dancing
Brooklyn bridge
Sleeping in the grass
UCB
Columbia campus and the Cathedrals
Matsuri
John, Tom, Des, Holly, Jen... and of course, Simón... :)

*sigh*

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Drunk - 5 stars

I love everyone and I am wasted... wine needed to be drunk... cause I'm leaving tomorrow and it will go bad and it takes like 1 drink for me to be drunk....

I have some amazing people in my life right now. Amazing. Love.

Yeah...

I remember how I shouldn't drink and blog, but I'm trying to not be wasteful. I got new contacts today and I'm not sure that I like them... And, then, today was my bosses last day...which was kind of a surprise cause she was supposed to be here through like two wednesdays from now...

and, now....

And, what the....

I was basically bribed, off the record, to stay at my job through January. It just keeps getting better and better, doesn't it? And after NY, I'm going to Disneyland. Seriously, I am.

Okay, pouring this glass down the drain...

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Moments

Someone once told me that when you have ringing in your ear it means you're about to lose the ability to hear that frequency...so, I guess as the frequency dies...it cries out... and then it's gone...
I have no idea if that is true, it's just something I was told once...

I feel like in my effort to stop reporting and do more thinking and writing, I've missed some moments that I should've captured... incredible clown shows, a perfect trip to Santa Cruz, a Ramadan dinner and a poker night, the Duck boat and other birthday parties for my beautiful friends... nights on the town, a bit of romance... auditions, the theater festival, mom's visit... Beach Blanket Babylon, Total B.S., IN THE WOUND... and friends friends friends... I'm exhausted and blessed.

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