East vs West, Right vs Left

At a bar on Folsom where I'm meeting some friends, there's a bun truck outside, so I order from it. I'm waiting to receive my food and this man starts to talk to me. He's older, from New York, and is visiting his friend in San Francisco. I tell him I've been toying with the idea of moving to New York and he says to me, "Don't move to New York - just visit. Move into San Francisco instead - it's so much nicer here. Don't move to New York".

Every time I set foot in New York, I feel like I have to move there...and every time I come back to the Bay I fall in love with it again.

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Perfect

Today was perfect in exactly the ways a day should be perfect...

I woke up late and guilt free. Got some stuff done this morning that I'd been putting off. Found out my favorite Patrick will be in town next week. Had an impromptu lunch with John, whom I love. Went to a delightful tasting with the delightful Shannon to assist in holiday party planning. Went to see Cameron's art installation which left me completely impressed and inspired. Watched the end of game 2 of the Giants winning - while practicing juggling. :) Then met up with Ikenna to watch The Social Network...which I had personally banned, but had to see after all the good reviews, and it was great! And Ikenna is great. :)

The weather was perfect today, which always makes a difference, and now, I'm up too late, as usual.

:)

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Broken hearts leave jagged edges...

Here's an update on random guys who've hit on me recently because I know some of you find this entertaining...

I'm in an alley photographing graffiti. This guy says, "They're beautiful, aren't they?" ...and asks what I'm doing in the alley. I tell him I'm going to a show. He asks if he can come with me and pretend he's my date, says we should smoke pot and discuss our story... I watch him disappear into a nearby warehouse....

On a street in New York, this guy passing out cards tells me that I'm beautiful and asks me my name. I tell him and, as I walk away, he calls out to me. He asks if he can take me to coffee, gives me his number, kisses me on the cheek...

The Safeway guy. We almost collide, and then he follows me around the store. He asks me out from the aisle behind the checkout line I'm standing in. A group of people in line look back and forth between us for each response. He gives me his number with hopes that I'll call...

A fire alarm goes off during a tech rehearsal I've been invited to. Outside, the musician in the show approaches me. His music is haunting and beautiful. I find him online later and ask to be put on his list. He asks if I'd like to have drinks after one of his shows...





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Hi rain

Speeding down the freeway with the window down and music blaring, I inhale as deeply as I can...

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Today

Today, the weather was perfect. I pulled into the garage and Arnel's smile had returned. I went upstairs, and Penny said, "Let's bring it back for Billy!" and she started to do the robot with me. :)

We had a service for Billy yesterday in the courtyard of our building, and it was so wonderful how many people were there and how many smiles he still brings to everyone's faces - even as we miss him.

I felt great today.

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Find your light

You can't have darkness without light...

It's been a rough run this year. I feel like my heart's been broken again and again... and then, in the meantime, I've found these wonderful moments of love and friends and light. ...like the universe is doing its best to counter balance the pain...

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"For you cannot see the tears in the falling... "

Today, Billy, the parking guy who would greet me every morning with a hug and good wishes, suffered a heart attack in the garage, and died...

...just like that.

When I went to get my car tonight, Ali, one of the other parking guys, gave me a hug. I began to sob. He wiped my tears away and, fighting his own, said, "Now, none of that...we need you to be strong for us. We need your smile...".

I am broken...

:'(

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Perspective

In reference to what she's observed about the way I fall in love, my friend Gabriella said something like, "When you love someone, you love all of them... the good, the bad - and the stuff where you're like, whaaaaa...?????". Haha - I'm not completely sure what that last part meant exactly... but, she's right. I fall in love with all of the beautiful details of someone. I get lost in them... to the point where I sometimes forget to take a step back...

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