Friday, August 26, 2016

Mt. Cutler Trail

I think the first time I hiked Mt. Cutler Trail was with my brother's best friend, Tony, when we were in high school.  It was likely during a time when Tony would show up at our house every weekend to hangout with my brother and, if I was still asleep when he arrived, would wander into my room with my cat in his arms to tell me it was time to wake up!  He woke me up a lot in those days.  I tended to sleep in as long as I could get away with, which sometimes had me in bed into the early afternoon.  

Mt. Cutler quickly became my favorite trail to hike.  It was short, challenging, close by, always accessible, and had a great lookout over Seven Falls...  Sometimes we'd hike it in the middle of the night to see the falls lit up and for a great view of the city. 

I was home for a few days for my sister-in-law's baby shower, and was able to hike the trail.  It had been a long time because I usually visit during the winter when it's a bit too cold, and possibly icy and snowy.  This time, the weather was perfect.  

I missed it so much.  The dusty trail, the lookout points, the rocks, the steep cliffs, the trees, the smell, the views.... 

Friday, August 19, 2016

The Shows

The Last Five Years - surprisingly enlightening
Andrew Bird - lovely
Mommy Queerest - quite an experience !  
Hatch - incredible images and moments
Chester Bailey - disturbing and brilliant
Oscar de la Renta - beautiful
Ka - SO FUN
Louis Katz - great night of comedy
King Lear - fights looked good! 
Broadway Under The Stars - crazy day, crazy and amazing show
DJ Harvey - great music, best night
Carmen at the ballpark - fun time, wonderful friends
Sting and Peter Gabriel - incredible performances and production
Redwood Ramblers - sweet gathering and farewell
Do Be - strange, beautiful, inventive
Gregory Alan Isakov & Magik Orchestra - deeply felt
Lindsey Stirling - pure energy, innovative
Janeane Garofalo - smart, hilarious tangents
Keiko Matsui - complex and inspiring

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Always...

I feel like I've gone through a lot in the last 6 months.  A major break up.  A trip to Croatia.  I've had visitors, seen a variety of shows, spent time with friends, met someone new...  Got into a car accident. 

And, I got to go to Disneyland with Phuong and Huy!  

Huy works with a non-profit for Vietnamese students and asked if he could introduce me to one of them to talk about career aspirations.  He kept saying, "When I talk to her I think of you, and she wants to do what you do.".  I agreed to talk to her, and that's how I got to meet the lovely Kavi...who doesn't actually want to do what I do.  :)  But, we had such a great connection, and the kind of inspiring conversation that just fills you right up.  

Kavi was headed to L.A. a couple weeks ago for a short film program, so Phuong and Huy invited me to join them for a trip to see her and to go to Disneyland!  It was SO. MUCH. FUN... !!  And, I got to see Ashley!!!! 

I also got some time to really think through things and I realized, in a very deep way, the lessons that seem to be bombarding me right now -- how very important it is to be grateful and kind no matter what the circumstances.  It's always worth it.  

Sunday, August 14, 2016

About love

I think I've had it all wrong...

I've confused love with romance, ideas of the future, needing to be heard vs doing everything in my power to practice love to the best of my ability every day...

I'm trying to learn to say when I'm hurt or disappointed instead of playing out my fear.  To ask the questions I'm afraid to ask.  To be vulnerable.  To be willing to say I feel vulnerable...

To love enough to be me all the time.  Especially when it's terrifying.