If only it were that easy...

The 1s

I was at a co-worker's desk yesterday and found these 1s.  He said I could have them so I took them, kept one for myself, and gave the other two to the other Executive Assistants in the office.  

Later, I sent the other EAs an email that said this:

"Look, the people you are after are the people you depend on. We cook your meals, we haul your trash, we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances. We guard you while you sleep."

- Fight Club. :)

Sorry to geek out, I'm weirdly obsessed with the 1s right now.

The other EAs thought i wanted to start a flight club...  Later, I sent them another email that said this:

I feel like i've just given you too much exposure to my over active mind. :)  sorry!  

what happened was, at the end of today someone asked about the 1s.  they said something like, "what's with the 1s?"  i responded, "all the EAs have 1s... (then off the top of my head said something like) you know, cause we're the 1s who do everything, and the 1s who know all the stuff, and the 1s who get blamed for all the crap..." haha...   and, that reminded me of this quote from fight club and made me realize that we are the 1s...  (pause for dramatic effect.).  anyway, it doesn't have anything to do with fight club (or anything really) directly, just reminded me of that quote from the movie.  ("...we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances.  We guard you while you sleep...")  it's a loose connection but, i guess i was thinking that we're the "we (or 1s)" he was referring to in the movie.  the people who get it all done.  sooo yeah, i made the connection, thought it was sort of interesting and that it gave the 1s a purpose, so i thought i'd send it along thinking you guys would also make the same amazing connection and we'd all be proud of the fact that we found a reason for the 1s.  ?  

:D 

(do you think i'm crazy now?  i mean, more than before...?)

Back in black

I got to work the hip hop dance fest again with the amazingly talented lighting designer, Jennyb!!  This time I assisted in the lighting booth, so took lots of notes and really soaked in all of the behind the scenes chatter that produces a great show.  It was a lot more brain work for me this year, in lieu of all the crazy running around from last year.  I missed being connected with the stage and the performers, but being in the booth felt like I was more a part of the creative process.  There were definitely benefits to doing both and I'm so grateful to have had the chance to work the show from both perspectives.

This is absolutely one of my favorite shows in the bay area.  It's so inspiring and full of energy that you can't help but leave feeling full of life and ready to dance! 

All of the groups were amazing, but my favorites this year were:  Robot Boys, Academy of Villains, Plague, and FBC.

Louise Erdrich, The Painted

"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."

Did you know you can mix Mucinex with a bunch of other drugs?  Here's a link in case you're interested:  http://www.bjchealth.org/?id=5488&sid=3  I'm presently mixing it with Sinex. 

Tonight started out at this bar (pictured above).  Civilized, classy, stylish.  The conversation was nice, and the company the exact kind you'd hope for after a long work week.  I stayed for a little over an hour and then headed to Alameda for dinner with a good friend at one of our favorite sushi bars -- which has remarkable customer service and the most delightful restaurant birthday celebrations I've ever experienced.  They turn off the lights and bring out dessert with this tiny golden tree, and then they all sing happy birthday with their lovely voices and Japanese accents.  It's the kind of thing that makes you smile from this deep deep place -- completely heartwarming and amazing.  When you go to leave, all the waitstaff lines up at the door to say thank you and wish you a good night.  <3

On my way home after dinner, a friend invited me out to an Irish pub in North Beach.  Now, really, you'd think I'd know better...but it wasn't so bad.  :) Silly old men downstairs, and strange enfeebled young men upstairs, but ... a cute place overall, and I was in cute company. 

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This week was full of awesome.  :)

Meditation with Angela
Dinner and a movie w/ Brian and Teresa
Taqueria and tea w/ Tommy
Hank IV and Andy's birthday

...but also missing a bit of awesome...which was you if you don't see yourself listed here. :)

If only I could shut off my brain

I've been kind of sad lately... while being surrounded by wonderful things. 

Day of the Dead parade w/ Noah.
Yummy dinner and Cat Lady at ODC with Aria.
Dancing w/ Alex and Joe.
Meeting w/ local Asian filmmakers, two impromptu film shoots, great connections, and new friends.
Blackbird with Anna and random city adventures.
The Ripcurl surf competition at Ocean Beach.
Come out and play games.
Perfect girl's night out at a restaurant turned speakeasy...

Direct my sail

My friend, Jon, said that taking control never works and that I should let go. "...to let go you just gotta release the handlebars..."

*deepbreathandexhale*

At 16, I was mistaken for being 12. At 19, a 6th grader (so, also 12?). At 21, a 14 year old....?!

I'm 36 and generally mistaken for being somewhere between 23 and 28 - which you'd think would work to my advantage....

Here's what's wrong with being single and looking younger than you are:

1. Guys your age or older (in my experience) treat you like you're an idiot until they find out your age.

2. Younger guys think you're their age, which gets you surrounded by lots of younger guys.


What does this have to do with relinquishing control? Well, I can't do anything about how I look. I can't do anything about who I like or don't like. I can't do anything about who likes or doesn't like me....

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

*handlebarsreleased*

If I slept, I probably wouldn't be tired.

I'm walking to a taqueria in the Mission tonight and a guy walking by points at me and says, "YOU are sexy..." I seem to always take these things with a grain of disbelief. ? ...but, maybe that's actually the problem.

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Things I haven't mentioned, but should, include: Phedra w/ the lovely Gabriella, dinner w/ Matt and Jess and little Wilder, Stella bella, happy hour w/ Aram, Punchline w/ Joan, celebration of speech victory w/ Josh and the wine bar, Total BS and Hank IV, Rosencrantz and Gildenstein are Dead (on stage!) and fancy dinner w/ Noah, and soccer w/ Teresa!