Roller skating disco party!

Brian, Teresa, Jen, and Patrick met me for some roller skating in a converted warehouse under the freeway. Lots of costumes and lasers. :)

I slept on my new bed for the first time last night. Making the investment in the mattress I wanted was totally worth it.

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Beauty in chaos

This is a mural made for my friend Brian on his 21st birthday at his party that he missed because he was lying in bed with a monster hangover from the night before. I love this mural.

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Rest in peace Anna Chen

As I was driving around with tears in my eyes, I found this hill covered in crosses...

Josh's mom passed away this morning after a long battle with cancer.

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I wear my sunglasses at night

Party at Brian and Teresa's tonight - fantastic amounts of fun! This is me and Jen lookin cool. :) ha!

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A bit of sunshine

On their way from a snowboarding trip back to Hawaii, Stacey and Todd came for a quick visit of food, laughs, a bit of adventure, a show, and a lot of good conversation. :) I love them so much.

They left Sunday evening so, for Valentine's Day, Michael and I met up and went to see the movie Valetine's Day. It was a complete product of the Hallmark holiday but, I have to say, I enjoyed it quite a bit. We watched it in the Jack London Square theaters, which in itself is an experience to remember. :) Oakland makes me happy.

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I am Jill's broken heart...

Josh came back from Taiwan today and texted me a story that confirmed that my life has turned into a Murakami novel....

I think I'm coping, and then I just break down.

My generous friend has now also sent me a blu-ray DVD player and an HDTV.

Everything is extreme...

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Year of the Tiger

According to the newly single kitten-like body builder guy (that's how he was described to me by his friend) who gave me a free ticket into the club (before we actually knew we were there with the same group), this was a burning man crowd.

There was a parade in the middle of the club at midnight, complete with ... do they call this a dragon dance?

DJs, costumes, buddas, performances... I was offered drugs on the dance floor. Ah, San Francisco... :)

Happy New Year! According to the Chinese zodiac, I'm a Tiger. One of my Chinese friends told me that means this year is supposed to be rough... Great... I guess I'm right on track.

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Rain

I was doing so well, and then the rain started up again. 

Today a guy I work with came up to me to see if I was okay.  I could tell by the way he was asking that he knew, even though I didn't tell him.  I thought I could hold it together, but when he actually said he knew and that he was sorry, my eyes welled up with tears...  It was late, so not a lot of people were there, but I still didn't want to cry in the middle of the office.  I told him I didn't want to talk about it there and went to the bathroom to try to pull myself together.  He waited for me outside the bathroom so he could apologize for making me cry.  I told him it was okay, but I didn't want to talk about it.  He then kept apologizing and told me who told him and on and on... until finally I had to get upset and sternly say, "I don't want to talk about it here.". !!  Seriously?!  What the hell is wrong with people??  This isn't the only instance of stupidity I've had to deal with this week... It's fascinating how insensitive people can be when trying to be sensitive.  However, that did help me stop crying.

On the flip side, a very good friend of mine has surprised me with an incredibly generous gift and is sending me a bed.  I'll still have to get a mattress, but it'll be the first real adult furniture I'll own.  A bed... with legs, a head board, and a ..base board (is that what you call the board by your feet)?  It's like gateway furniture to no longer living like a college student, which is well overdue. 

I'm still grateful for all of the people in my life.  Even the stupid ones... 

Cirque du Soleil

Thank you, Michael. 

*sigh*

The light makes all the difference... It feels really good to be in a place where I love the light.

My friends completely came to my rescue this weekend. As I was floundering around in my emotions, they took charge and made sure I was okay and moving forward. I seriously can't thank them enough. Maureen, Michael, Roland...my heroes.

And now... what?

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This used to be a Funhouse...

...but now it's full of evil clowns. - Pink

I've been playing Pink's latest album on repeat. Apparently, she also went through a break up...and then poured everything she got from it into Funhouse.

I'm moving (again) tomorrow.

It's been raining for the past two weeks -- like my emotions have somehow manifested in the weather. I can't believe how fast things are changing...

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"...as my whole world shifts and locks into place..."

I love this picture. :)

I turned 35 on Friday. Some of my favorite people came to hang out with me, and then a few more of my favorites met me later at a bar. I had a goal to make it through the entire day without crying... I didn't really accomplish my goal, but I did manage to have quite an exceptional day regardless.

It seems like months have gone by, but it's only been a little over a week...

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Upside down

This is my amazing friend Michael who's been saving me from myself...

Josh, the wonderful boyfriend i've been with for the last ... well, creeping up on 4 years ... has admitted that he's not sure what he wants for his future and, where we have a lot of fun together and really care about each other, he's not sure it's right to stay together and keep me from the future I hope to have... so, he's doing his best to make a mature decision for us and has decided it's time to break up. As much as I love him and wanted so much for this to work, I have to respect that decision and know that he's just wanting to do the right thing.

My heart is breaking, but a part of me knows he's right.

So, my friend Michael has been taking care of me and has been the best kind of friend you could possibly have.

I'm so sad... but, so lucky to have (had) a boy who loves me enough to let me go... And a friend who is willing to be there to pick up all of the pieces... A lot of friends, actually, who have reached out to show their love and support. I'm so grateful for the people in my life.

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Segway!

The company I work for purchased a private tour for some Japanese clients coming to town but, when the clients arrived, they had plans of their own. The tour had already been paid for with no refunds, so I got to take 6 random people on a private Segway tour. We had one guy drop out at the last minute, so I brought Josh along to fill the spot.

Segway is super dorky, and way more fun to ride then you could possibly imagine.

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