Rain

I was doing so well, and then the rain started up again. 

Today a guy I work with came up to me to see if I was okay.  I could tell by the way he was asking that he knew, even though I didn't tell him.  I thought I could hold it together, but when he actually said he knew and that he was sorry, my eyes welled up with tears...  It was late, so not a lot of people were there, but I still didn't want to cry in the middle of the office.  I told him I didn't want to talk about it there and went to the bathroom to try to pull myself together.  He waited for me outside the bathroom so he could apologize for making me cry.  I told him it was okay, but I didn't want to talk about it.  He then kept apologizing and told me who told him and on and on... until finally I had to get upset and sternly say, "I don't want to talk about it here.". !!  Seriously?!  What the hell is wrong with people??  This isn't the only instance of stupidity I've had to deal with this week... It's fascinating how insensitive people can be when trying to be sensitive.  However, that did help me stop crying.

On the flip side, a very good friend of mine has surprised me with an incredibly generous gift and is sending me a bed.  I'll still have to get a mattress, but it'll be the first real adult furniture I'll own.  A bed... with legs, a head board, and a ..base board (is that what you call the board by your feet)?  It's like gateway furniture to no longer living like a college student, which is well overdue. 

I'm still grateful for all of the people in my life.  Even the stupid ones...