Wednesday, March 18, 2026

Any questions, Jerry?

A great friend and mentor, and the best broadcast director I ever worked with... 

I met Jerry when I first started working as a corporate producer and, right from the start, he challenged me with thoughtful, sharp questions before every show. He often exposed my inexperience with his questions, so I learned quickly that thinking through what he might ask and being able to answer his questions before he could ask them, made me a significantly better producer. Of course, as hard as I tried, he always had a question. :) Eventually, instead of asking the group if they had any questions at the end of a crew chat, I would simply end the chat with, "Any questions, Jerry?" He would chuckle and, if I had managed to answer all of his questions, he would still ask, "Does John have access to the deck?", usually reminding me to give John access to the deck. 😅

Jerry was an intuitive director and a true master of his craft. Watching his broadcasts was like having him in your head, showing you exactly what you wanted to see. You could feel the ease, delight, and satisfaction in his work through the screen, and he was always full of ideas and wanting to make the viewer experience better. Jerry made a huge up level to our program in the last year, taking a dated livestream look we created during the pandemic, and turning it into one that will soon become a new standard in our events program. It was a nice gift for him to leave us with and I believe it will be known as "The Jerry Look" in our program moving forward. 

Jerry was also one of the kindest and most engaging people in the control room. He knew how to connect with people and he could always make you laugh, sometimes even when he wasn't trying to! We once had conversation about a pair of boots I bought that had these leather tassels hanging from the zipper. He told me how he really liked the tassels because without them they would just be plain boots. Later, when we were getting ready for a crew chat, he leaned over and asked another crew member if he had seen my tassels. The crew member seemed visibly uncomfortable, which made me start laughing. It made Jerry laugh too, so he clarified that he was talking about my boots! 😂

Last year, Jerry asked me to talk to one of the young producers he had become friends with at the news station. He said she wasn't sure what was next for her, and he thought I would be a good person for her to connect with. We set up a call, had a great conversation, and became instant friends. As a result, the three of us, and one of our favorite graphics ops, started connecting more consistently outside of work, deepening my friendship with Jerry, and reinforcing how special it was to have him in my life. 

Jerry passed in his sleep last week and I can't seem to process it. His energy is still so present. It's a huge loss for us -- but, I can't help but think that for him it was such a lovely way to go. He worked his magic on the Chinese New Year parade broadcast for the local news station the night before, went to bed, and just never woke up... 

With great respect and love, Jerry, rest in peace. 

Friday, February 27, 2026

J-'s family visit

J-'s sister and one of his nieces came to visit! 

We had rain forecasted for the entire week and record breaking cold weather in the Bay, but his sister and niece were coming from England and weren't concerned with the weather! :) 

Here's the list: 

Sunday 
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday 
Thursday 
Friday 
We had raincoats, umbrellas, and determination to do everything on J-'s niece's list, but we also allowed ourselves some time to relax with late morning start times and a break to rest and warm up before dinners. 

It was a lovely time together, even in the cold! 

Monday, February 9, 2026

Birthday

I always seem to do a birthday post pretty late, but, c'est la vie. :) 

This year, J- took me to a lovely dinner in the city at Precita Social, and other friends joined me or invited me for dinners and time together around the date. It was simple and nice. 

I always appreciate when people reach out and want to celebrate with me, especially at the beginning of the year when there's a lot going on, and when I can't seem to get it together to plan anything. 😅

Saturday, January 24, 2026

Stranger Things

On the afternoon of July 20th, I was in Times Square trying to buy same day tickets to The Outsiders musical. It was sold out. The only other show I was kind of interested in was Sunset Boulevard, but that show was closing that night and the tickets were $900/ea... ugh! 

I was talking to this guy by the TKTS booth who talked fast and worked for another discount company across the street called Broadway Tickets Last Minute Center. I remembered that a co-worker's husband mentioned liking Pirates! The Penzance Musical, which was a spinoff of Pirates of Penzance, so I asked about that one, and the tickets guy said: 

Tickets guy: You want to see Pirates? *judgy face* Do you like jazz? 

Me: I do like jazz! 

Tickets guy: Okay, you might like it then -- you know what you should see is Stranger Things. 

Me: No, I don't watch the tv show and it looks scary. 

Tickets guy: It's won a ton of awards and it's great. I've seen it 3 times. 

Me: Is it scary? 

Tickets guy: Have you seen Harry Potter? 

Me: I have seen Harry Potter, and I also wasn't a Harry Potter person but I loved the stage show. 

Tickets guy: That's why you should see Stranger Things. It's won a ton of awards and the theater making is phenomenal. Like nothing you've ever seen. We can get you back orchestra seats for ... $96. You'll love it. 

At 6:45pm, I walked into the Marquis Theater in Times Square to watch the 7pm performance of Stranger Things: The First Shadow. 

About 20 minutes in, something happened in the show that I found so scary that it made really angry. The tickets guy tricked me! I asked him if the show was scary and he said... he said, "did you see Harry Potter"...damn. I wanted to march out of there and get my money back, but how would I ever find that guy again, and when would I do that because I was leaving the next day, and there are children sitting next to me who seem to think this is awesome, and people are clapping at the scary things...?! I started to think about the theater making, which took me out of emotions and into production, and then I started to step out of fear and into respect for this incredible performance that was unfolding in front of me. The effects were exceptional, the actors had me deeply invested, and I was hanging on every word...but, what exactly was going on? I had no idea. There was this scary possessed guy, and these high school kids trying to put on a musical, and they were fighting alien monsters? 

Even with the shift in perspective, I still left the theater that night wishing I had picked another show -- but, then, I found myself unable to stop thinking about it... 

I started asking J- about the tv show. Had he watched it, did he like it, were they fighting alien monsters on stage?? What was the show about? He said that the tv series was really good and he thought I could watch it cause it's not too scary and it kind of has a Goonies vibe. He said he'd rewatch it with me in case I got scared. 💖

And, that is how I fell into the wonderful, heartfelt, definitely scary, delightful adventure that is Stranger Things. I had no idea that I would love this series so much! The charm fully outweighed the scary because you fall in love with all of the characters, and you're rooting for them from beginning to end. 

J- and I managed to get through all 4 seasons in time to be ready for the release of Season 5, at which point we were both obsessed with the show. :) He got us tickets to see the finale in the theater on New Year's Eve, and it was a completely satisfying goodbye. I mean, until conformity gate was suggested. But then, when conformity gate was for sure not happening, it was a satisfying goodbye again. Haha

Thank you, Stranger Things -- and, fast talking tickets guy! ;) What an intense and amazing ride!  

Saturday, January 17, 2026

2025

2025 was beautiful. There was joy, celebration, and new adventures, but it also came with a lot of transition. 

I've learned that with transition comes grief, which has a heaviness to it, because it holds so much complexity. It holds memories, love, loss, gratefulness, sadness. And, you have to sit with it. Let yourself feel all of those things, so you can move through it, learn from it, allow it to let you grow beyond it, while continuing to cherish what needs to be cherished. It seems to be a process of love, and letting it go to become something new. 

As Vision puts it, "What is grief, if not love persevering." 

And, with grief, if you allow it, comes peace. Presence. Perspective. Moments to be so delighted by the people around you, to revel in the beauty of nature, to deeply feel the warmth of an embrace, to celebrate how far you've come and what you've learned. It's an opportunity for acceptance and abundance, and an invitation, to flourish. 

Friday, January 2, 2026

Fight!

*Warrior. This is a photo of Jean-Michel Basquiat's painting from the exhibit at Fondation Louis Vuitton in Paris in 2018.

I've been training in stage combat since 2006 and choreographing/directing in small to mid-level theatres since 2012. I was named a finalist in local award nominations for Outstanding Fight Direction in 2019, and I've had fights reviewed as a highlight of a play in 2022 and 2025. 

Fight work is a gift. It's an opportunity for me to stretch myself, to play, to problem solve, to connect, to create, to watch people grow, and to enhance a story by telling a little, violent, sometimes funny, story within a story -- and, I'm so very grateful that I get to do it!